Simplicated.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Today was a tiring Saturday. Thought i can actually rest today..
BUT was called to training by sensei.. ><
During the training, was evolved from Jessie to MUM...
The sensei started to call me MUM!

Can't really remember what exactly happened.. (I KNOW! I GOT STM.)
but.. what i remembered was, i was watching sensei and president doing demo.
While they are doing the demo, i was watching with my hands on my hips.
Then sensei was like why you watch until like that? look like a mother..
so i replied.. I am yen hsien's (president) mother.
After that, sensei started calling me MUM!

He like addicted lohhh after every instruction he give, he will say like..
MUM okay anot? MUM can understand? LOL
He say until super funny lohhhhh

Learned some punching techniques today..
and KICKING! it's so difficult...
my leg can't go up high... super sad sehhh

Today's training was quite tiring but it's fun..
Cause we trained with some younger kids..
Not very young lahhh mostly Sec1 students..
but then... Sec1s to us (Poly students) are young... haha

I guess I'll stop here. =D

♥ 8:34 AM

Friday, May 29, 2009

SCHOOL!
In school now.. hoho
I have hilda pole sitting beside me now...
she is the most oh my god girl in the world!
haha just kidding~
She is the most awesome girl in the world
^ she said it herself.. i mean typed.

Using James' lappy now..
Waiting for meowth~!
SO SLOW!!

School is as stress as usual.. so sad..
But never mind. i can cope it. hehehe

♥ 1:14 AM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Tired.. very tired..
Life like this is super tiring.
Stress from everywhere.. It makes me very tired.

& now that i just realised... I'm totally worn out.
I can fall asleep on bed in just 5 seconds time.
I've never tried that before.. and i can actually fall asleep anywhere.
I'm just feeling too tired..
Everyday seems to be so tense, and relax is out of my sight.

Actually I used to be able to relax by listening to songs..
But recently, it doesn't seems so.
I realised i don't know how to destress anymore.
What should i do? I'm super worn out now..

♥ 10:37 AM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Went to play badminton at jurong west stadium today. with hilda pole, laoda, lun ma and meowth.. It's FUN! super fun! played for 2+ hours.. *actually only book court for 2 hours.. 3-5. But we played extra.. haha* Now.. my leg start to ache liao.. hoho.. tomorrow will be a tough day.. and i got training also!! Damn! Later whole body ache.. no energy/strength to move... ><

♥ 3:11 AM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Damn it. I feel so useless.. I kept losing my study notes.. Aren't they very important notes? Why am i losing it again and again? Damn me man!

And i started saying SHIT too.. KANA Influence liao lahhh! Shit laoda and ningning sia... Everytime in front of me shit here shit there... make me keep saying shit also.. sign.

I FEEL SO LOUSY NOW.. sign.

♥ 8:52 AM

Had CRS test today, did quite okay. Actually not as good as i thought i should had done. But never mind, it's quite okay anyway. Went to East Coast Park today, after lessons and studies. Went with Ningning, Nana, Laoda and Yiancheng. It was so fun! Rent the bike 2 hours for $6. Instead of 2 hours they actually gave us extra 1 hour which is 3 hours $6. But we actually returned the bike after 2 hours.. haha Before that, we cycled to the bedok jetty where people fish there. It's so beautiful.. We stayed there for about 15-20 mins.. chatting and looking at the beautiful green sea.. then continued to cycle when we come to this place where there are sand castles over there. Went to take a look at the castle but in the end, ningning went to pick seashells and we stood there chatting about secondary schools and waiting for her.
Overall today was fun. =D

♥ 2:12 AM

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I'M BACK. The CAMP was fun. =)
Was so happy when i logged in msn. I saw _____. ^^
_____ was onlining also. So happy to see _____. =P

The camp was fun! The night walk is exciting, trilling but terrible.
Was scared the hell out of me.. It's so face-throwing for karate..
GODDD

The camp was till sunday, but i left on saturday which is today..
After our Brazilian ju-jitsu and yoga session.

The 2 sessions was fun! Especially the brazilian ju-jitsu..
Starting for the girls was embarrassing but after that when we started trying it out, it's fun!

And it actually benefits the girls alot...
Can learn to protect ourselves.. LOL

Okay... That's a rather short brief camp summary.. XP
Have to go chiong studies and homeworks, so byes ya!

♥ 4:51 AM

Friday, May 15, 2009

Going to camp soon. Will miss my bed, my blanket, my lappy, my dad, my mum and my sweet home. BUT I will be back soon. Tomorrow. haha GOSH! Then I'll have to chiong my formal report, CRS and some minor homeworks.. oh my god.. how am i going to chiong finish a formal report and my CRS in a day?! dying soon~ haiya.. don't care le.. i going off for my camp.. =D

♥ 2:34 AM

Saturday, May 9, 2009

It's 3 in the morning now. Just finished rewatching my detective conan episode 304. Yesterday, the saturday, aunt and her family came over to visit us. It has been months since they last came. Me and my little cousins took photos and just how troublesome they are. Even so, i still feel happy to see them around. But! The bad news is.. I can't do my homework properly! SHIT man! i still have so many pages of AP Chem, a FORMAL report and AE&E! But then, I don't think I'm doing the AE&E homework. I'll just finish the formal report later in the afternoon and try to finish up my AP Chem. There's just too much things to do! And I'm lack of time! I WANT MORE TIME! And it's like.. CONCUSSION ALREADY~!

By the way, during dinner yesterday which is the saturday night. The In-charge of Karate called. I WAS EATING! He said that there will be a trial training on monday, 6pm and a fun camp on friday. And asked if i would be going. Then i had a long discussion with DaoXiang and NingNing.. Actually mainly with daoxiang cause ningning like don't really wanna go. And after listening to what daoxiang said; he tried to persuade me go taekwondo instead of karate.. And i was kinda shaken by the quick research i did and his persuasion. But after a serious search, I became more firm on my choice karate. Well, i wanted to join karate anyway. So i'll just stay with my choice. I'm not sure with ningning and daoxiang, they seems quite relectant to go for karate. Maybe they would quit karate, i don't know.. But i think i will stay firm in karate. It's my interest anyway. And.. I told the karate in-charge that i will message him to confirm with him. But i totally forgot about it. XP so i guess i'll give him a message tomorrow.

Stopping here. Becoming panda soon. I guess i'll hurry and go bed.. NIGHTS~!

♥ 12:07 PM

Friday, May 8, 2009

Was looking at the photos of my good old days. So memorable. Then i started getting emotional, I missed all of you. I missed you. Even looking at the photos, i started missing those days back then. Looking at the photos i realised that things can never get back to how it was eventually. We can never get to talk again, I lost your contact. Maybe we might meet again in the future, but i missed you badly now. Maybe it's because I feels so stressed now that i start to miss those relaxing and enjoyable days. I missed the days when i can see you almost everyday. I missed the days when i can see your smile almost everyday. I missed you badly when my tears flows down. You'll always laugh at me for crying because of such stupid things, but tears just come down by itself. I know. I know it's time i should continue looking forward, when we meet the next time, i'll be stronger. I won't cry anymore. I'll smile just for you. I'll be strong to face everything in life, till the day when i really can't take it anymore. Then, I'll hope that you are there for me. I really don't know in the society like this now, who is really to me. Even if it's the closest person to me, I still don't feel the security within me.

♥ 6:25 AM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Having lessons now!

I love my girlfriend more!

♥ 12:20 AM

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Came here to post a short post.. Went to the CCA fair today. Joined Adventure Club and Karate with Ningning.. Actually wanted to join 3 CCA.. But 3 seems to be too much for me. So i cut down to 2. School become really... how should i say? frightening place? Maybe it's just for times... But i felt really stressed for the time being.. I feels so tired.. Mentally and physically. But thankfully, I got home early today and was aable to get some sleep which makes me feels better..

♥ 8:10 AM

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Did i do anything that angers him?
Did i?

He seems like he's angry with me..
Oh my god! What should i do?!

♥ 10:02 AM

It's tiring; even just looking and observing. Sometimes i just feels as if i am suffocating. I don't know.. If it's because of the stressful life in poly? or is it because of the stressful society? I don't know, really. I just feel the pressure on me which makes me ultimately tired. I starts to scared of school. I starts to feels tired of school. School doesn't seems fun to me anymore. People starts to seems scary. I don't know.. i really don't know.. it seems so unnatural to me. Maybe i'm not used to it.. Maybe.. I'm truely tired.. How i wish tomorrow is saturday. Then i can rest as much as i want.. How i missed secondary school life now.. but time can't rewind... i can't go back to the past.. i can only continue facing reality of my present and future.. I know i have to do my best in everything now.. I will... Do My Best...

♥ 8:43 AM

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Finally, we went out together. FPB went MIA for such a long time. We went sentosa today, we went to cycle while jac went to skate. I mean she really went go rent skates and was opposite the shop trying to learn how to skate! haha quite weird isn't it? while jac learns how to skate, yilin learns how to cycle! just nice, they can accompany each other.. LOL I got 天分on skating. the first time i wore the skates, i already knew how to stand and walk! XD not bad right? Today took quite a bit of photos, but sadness! that damn woman! didn't get to take group photo because xueqi~ she didn't like to take photos. But never mind, me, yilin and ser took.. Jac didn't like to take photos too. I don't know why but shouldn't girls likes to take photos? i mean for me, i always thought that as long as you are a girl, you will like taking photos. It doesn't seems so right? haha after going to sentosa, we went to vivo.. Xueqi was like oh my god! Jessie! what happened to you? why all of a sudden you keep taking photos? -.-" i was like what the hell? I loved taking photos everysince i was in kent ridge! ser can be my witness! she knows it! cause she saw my zilian photos before.. haha oh yahhh on my way home today, xueqi sms-ed. She said that she loved my present. i'm so glad that she actually likes it. =)

♥ 8:44 AM

Friday, May 1, 2009

Blogging early in the morning.. Today I'm going out with FPB... to sentosa... Hopefully, we'll come back with tonnes of photos! hahaXD

♥ 6:10 PM

Now that i feel, I find it really difficult to communicate with Jac. I don't know why.. I feel so tired whenever i talk to her..

♥ 7:31 AM

I'm aware that to my parents, i'm still a child.
To my parents, I'm stupid and blur.
To my parents, I can never take care of myself.
To my parents, I still can't become a young adult.

People always says that when you get into poly, you'll become a young adult. You have the freedom to wear your own clothes to school. You have less striction, more freedom. But this isn't true.. At least for me, it isn't.. i never like requesting things from my parents. Things that needed money especially. Because i'm aware that i can't. My family financial status prohibits me. I'm not a rich kid, so there many things i can't do. But i really wanted to go out and have supper with my friends but i'm not allowed to. And my mum's reason for it was if i go out for the first time, there will be the second time. Sooner or later, the times of me going out for supper with friends will increase.. I understand that they are worried for me to go out at night.. But i'm not alone. I have my friends with me. We are just going to have supper and chat. I shouted at my mum today, which makes me really upset because i know that i shouldn't shout at her. It's disrespectful. But things just came out from my mouth.. I was upset that she didn't allow me to go for supper so i kept really quiet. Then she said that if i insist to go, she will just allow.. I didn't wanted approval like this.. I don't like to be approved like this.. I always wanted them to approve willingly. But the way she said it really upset me, so i shouted at her, "You know how i am, then just let me be for the time being. I'm be fine after a while... So why can't you just let me be for the time being?!" I know i'm rude... but this just came out from my mouth... I'm sorry.. I don't mean to upset you, mum.

♥ 6:55 AM

To, my dear Qiqi~

Hey woman, even though i know that you will never come here to read this post, but i still wanna dedicate this post to you. You are one of my best friend in Kent Ridge. One of my hearts. 2 days ago, the 29th April was your birthday, but i couldn't celebrate your birthday with you on that day. I thought that you might feel really happy to see us on that day, cause if it's me, i'll really wished to see you guys on my birthday. I really felt sad not being able to see you that day. So i sent you a special birthday message. I tried to imagine how you react when you saw it. And i'm really glad that you actually like it alot.. Thanks woman. You and FPB made my life in Kent Ridge really meaningful. Because with you guys, I'm not alone.. Because of you guys, I really look forward to school everyday. Even though we are in different polytechnics now.. I won't forget who you are and all our precious memories. The photo on top is my present to you.

A Gift Of LOVE

My gift to you is my love

Given from deep within my heart.

This special love will never end

Even when we're apart.

I'm giving you this present from deep within my heart, that i will hope that you won't forget who i am, and our memories together. Even though some may be unclear now.. But even if it's only a small part of memory with me in it, it's enough.. This is not an expensive gift but the feeling in it is expensive. It's the feelings of how much i love you. Woman.. Don't you dare to forget who i am.. From deep inside my heart, i wished that you'll love this present and not find it useless because to me, it's not useless. It's a form of way where i can express my feelings to you. As we are best friends in the past, now and even in the future.

With all my love,

Jessie.

♥ 4:34 AM