OMG!!!
JESSIE"S HERE!!!
LOL
YES!!! I'M HERE!!! AND I'M OFFICIALLY DECLARING THAT I'VE FULLY RECOVERED!!!
MUAHAHHAHAHAH THANK YOU DAD~ THANK YOU MUM~ THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO SUPPORTED ME..~ LOLLLL LAST BUT NTO LEAST.. I WANT TO THANK MYSELF!!!! YOU SUFFERED!!!! AWWWWWWW HAHAHAHAH

♥ 9:43 AM

天啊... 我犯了罪不应该犯的错...
妈妈的生日... 我竟然都没有祝她生日快乐！
其实我不是不知道他的生日在27号...
我只是不知道昨天是27号!!!
怎么办!?!?!
妈妈生气加伤心了!!! T.T

♥ 9:24 AM

SICK! zzz
went to see the doctor just now.
Fever 38.1 (doc say quite high?), running nose, sore throat, cough..
got 3 days MC..
i'll miss so many lessons... omg~

♥ 11:46 PM

A FUCKING BROTHER WITH A FUCKING ATTITUTDE
IF YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO DO THINGS WITH VIOLENCE..
THEN DON'T YOU SHOW IT TO ME!
I AM YOUR SIS BUT YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO SHOW ME VIOLENCE!
FUCK OFF LAH!

♥ 9:48 AM

i need support..
life is tedious..
friends do fucking irritating things which create nothing but trouble..
if you want create troubles, get yourself far away from me..
i don't wish to entertain you..

relationship is a very complicated thing.
why why make it more complicating!?!
why can you people just keep things as simple as possible?
why must ones create so much trouble and ended up being hated by so many people?

i'm freaking tired now..
i am stupid enough to think that things will be better than before..
one place will be better than another..
and i'm proven wrong..
totally wrong..
that's the worst..
the scariest story in my scary stories 100..

so i need to find a way to survive through..
thank goodness they are with me..
i'm really glad i have them with me..
if not i doubt i can survive through any longer..

i just wish to keep things as simple as possible..
but humans alone are complicated things..
so it's difficult huh?
course mate give problems..
classmates give problems..
friends give problems..
good friends give problems..
best friend give problems..
all this add together..
equals to headache + headache + headache..
great..

♥ 9:19 AM

Tomorrow's Memories..


Wanting to make the sunset I saw with you on that day last forever
Within my memory I reached out to touch you over and over, but

The same scenery and feelings will never return again
So I'll surely turn to look back at the shining dream from my past

Even in the brand new future, sadness spills over
Staining the heart, making everyone stop in place and lose sight of it

In the midst of the changing seasons
What color will we paint tomorrow?
If we can strongly, strongly believe in each other
What color future will be waiting?

Even the most precious memory will fade someday
So I averted my eyes from reality and ran away to hide behind the word "dream"

Even if the broken yesterday was nothing but a mistake
It's not too late, you can start over as many times as it takes

In the midst of the changing ages
How many times will I love someone?
If we can deeply, deeply support each other
What will I be able to do for you?

Piling upon each other deep in my heart
Joy and sadness, warmth and hatred
The days we shared after our chance meeting
Are surely etched into my heart forever

In the midst of the changing seasons
What color will we paint tomorrow?
If we can strongly, strongly believe in each other
What color future will be waiting?

What color will we paint tomorrow?

--credit; taiji project, Arashi - Ashita no Kioku

This is a translated song lyrics of Arashi's Ashita no Kioku..
It's a bitterly beautiful song..
a song that can best describe my feelings now..
how great...

♥ 4:53 AM

I REALISED I CAN'T BE ALONE..
I THINK ALOT..
THEN I BECOME DEPRESSED..
I CRY.. AND I LAUGH..
THEN I SAY TO MYSELF..
"JESSIE, YOU'RE SO STUPID.."

IT JUST SEEMS THAT BEING ALONE LOOKS SO PATHETIC..
THE PATHETIC ME GOING HOME ALONE..
BUT I'M FINE WITH IT..
SINCE.. IT CAN'T BE HELPED..
RIGHT? IT CAN'T BE HELPED...

♥ 3:45 AM

YO PEOPLE!!
i'm fully destressed! and 100% recharged!
totally oh my god now!!!
I found my interest back! and my shopping mood!!
MUAHAHAHA
watched shows yesterday.. went shopping today!
and i realise something..
cannot lost interest..
if not once you gain back your interest..
you'll get double!
i lost my shopping mood, and when i gain back..
i shopped and bought damn lots of things!
at least.. my wallet got one hole now..
spent $50 just today! one day nia!!!
and i regain my interest on watching DC!!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE!! DC ROCKS!!!
kinda lost my interest on dc for a while..
didn't have the mood to watch.. so i stopped watching for a few episodes..
NOW!! i can watch a few episodes at a shot!!!
MUAHAHAHHA
_
after today will have to start on my work again..
but don't worry! i know how to manage it now.. ((((:

♥ 11:02 AM

i am forcing myself too much..
which soon, i will break down into pieces..
mentally and physically..
maybe not that much physically..
but mentally i think i forced myself too much..
so much that i lost everything i love..
my interest..
my entertainments..
somehow i still feel very tense with my new classmates..
the sense of uncertainness...
not knowing how they are and how they see me..
somehow makes me stress myself out..
maybe we are still not so close..
then most likely, i still need time to get used to it..
but i've gotten a hold of it already...
it's just that i need more time to completion..
_
school work is another crazy factor..
work is never ending..
i have to take a break from all the school work..
if not before i get closer to my claamates, i will break..
and it's only.. like the 3rd week of school...?
buck up! jessie, you have to buck up..
_
TR&TRA, CHEM ENG, FO CHEM, ENV. STU. B..
have done all the practicals ONCE already...
TR&TRA, did it with rau, edmund and that woman..
the friday before this practical, smsed her to ask if she want join our group for TR&TRA..
need 4 person in a group, but we only have 3.. so just stick back to the very original plan..
on the practical day itself, i started talking to her..
work wise.. no personal stuff, except for things she told me..
i tried to get her in as in get her to be more involved and won't feel left out..
but that's only because she is my groupmate..
so she cannot be left out..
but seems like she thought that i have already forgive her..
or maybe to her, i finally start talking to her..
but i have to make it clear..
we are still in bad terms..
i'm still upset with u..
so i still have no intention to forgive u currently..
so u have to get this clear..
i talk to u is only because we are groupmates..
not because i have forgive u..
to gain someone's forgiveness..
u'll have to think about what u should do.
&. i still have not acknowledge u as my girlfriend yet.
so stop calling me girlfriend.
_
anyway..
i'm 50% destressed!
I FOUND MY MINA!!!
OH MY MINA MINA BABY~~

♥ 3:54 AM

i lost all my interest..
in manga, anime, drama and shopping..
i lost all my interest in leisure and..
somehow i need to keep chionging my studies..
the moment i stop, i feel as if i am slacking and being lazy..
SHIT! i want my leisure back!!
i want go shopping again!
anime and manga!!! )))):

♥ 6:09 AM