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It's Simple..
my soul.

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jESSiE;谊
✖ 诞生之日;070492
✖ 学院圣地;
...|Kent Ridge Sec Sch|
...|Singapore Polytechnic|
✖ 灵魂所在;
...|joan92_ong@hotmail.com|
✖ 安息之地;
...[ tumblr. ]

my heart.

✖ My Family
✖ My Friends
✖ ARASHI
...|Jun-Aiba-Ohno-Nino-Sho|
✖ Teletubies
✖ FPB
...|The SIAO CHAR BOs|
✖ Hana Yori Dango
✖ Detective Conan
✖ xxxHOLIC
✖ JAPAN

strike out.

✖ go ARASHI Concert
✖ go JAPAN Study/Shopping
✖ go TAIWAN Shopping
Grow back long hair
...LONGER HAIR
✖ Customised Music Box
..."Orgel: Love So Sweet/Lacie/One Love"
MP3 Player
... NEW MP3!
✖ Red PVC Jacket
✖ Laptop cover
Dye hair(red series)
✖ Shoes
... Pumps/Flats
... Flip Flops@NUM
... Boots(Short)
... Boots (Knee Length)
✖ Skinny Jeans
... Black/Dark Blue/Blue
✖ RED Camera
✖ Get driving license (Manual)
✖ HanaDan Finals DVD
✖ Perfume
... BeBe
✖ Baking Mixer
✖ Hair Curling Hot Setter
✖ Curling Hair Brush
✖ Ceramic Hair Straightener
✖ Ceramic Hair Curler
✖ UV Nail Dryer
✖ NailArt Stamping Image Plates
✖ Konad Nail Polish
✖ Books on Hair Style Designs
✖ Books on Nail Art Designs
✖ Hoodie Jacket
✖ Baseball Jacket

alternative exits.

JESSiE
PEiYi
HUiYi
BEEGUET
JACQUELINE
HILDA
CHRiSTiNA
LYN
PENGLiN
DARK
XiAOYi
ELEANOR
LAMER
JACiNTHA
章鱼姐
YONGSHAN
ZONGWEi
2E6 '06

my days, not yours.

September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011
February 2011
March 2011
April 2011
May 2011

thank you.

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Monday, August 31, 2009

GOD!!
Overslept today..
Wanted to wake up early to do some studying de..
But in the end i woke up at 10...
*cause weiloon called me.*

Thank goodness, he called me today, if not i really will oversleep de loh!
Then went Jurong Point to eat Breakfast + Lunch with weiloon..
BUT!! I forgot to bring money...
zzz

So in the end we went SP without eating..

...

Really cannot sia..
Without MAMA, i really cannot wake up on time.
DAMN IT!

But, they coming back tomorrow morning.. ^^


1:34 AM


Sunday, August 30, 2009

Second day since they left..

Seems like i have grown..
I no longer cry when i'm alone.
I no longer fear when i'm alone.
I can enjoy being alone now.

But when i heard the highness over at the other side of the phone, I almost let my tear took over me.
How i wished i was over there.
How i wished i can personally wish her happy birthday.
How i wished i can see them again..

It's okay, isn't it?
Since it's no choice that i can't go.
I have a paper to take which didn't allow me to go.

But when i heard their happiness over the phone, i was thinking..
It's great to be with them isn't it?
It's great to be with your family...
It's great to have relatives who cares and support each other..

I want to see them soon..
SOON..

Hopefully they will be coming over during the Nov/Dec holiday..

....

Tomorrow will be the second last paper..
MIP..
GAMBATTE!!


9:12 AM


Saturday, August 29, 2009



This is a nice song..
March 9..

The song sang by Aya's class for the choir competition in one litre of tears..
XD


9:15 PM


Friday, August 28, 2009

&. They left.


7:23 PM


Sunday, August 23, 2009

Feeling much better now.
Went to malaysia the last 2 days..

时不时出去转转一下心情还不错...
我现在已经okay了...
什么事都难不倒我!
哈哈哈哈

=="
好白痴哦!
明天要做最后的充斥!
施谊,加油!


9:30 AM


Friday, August 21, 2009

有很多话不是不想说...不是不肯说...
而是...说不出口...

我有很多话想说...
可是,我不能说...
因为我在自己身边围了一道墙...
一道让谁也无法接近我的墙...

我们可能看起来像是好友...
可是,我们一点都不是...
感觉上,我们只是在学校一起上课的同学...
除了功课,我好像都进不了你们的话题...

虽然每当有人问起,我都回说自己不介意...
可是,我真的不介意吗?
说不介意应该是骗人的吧?
说真的...我不原意说,其实也是怕他们会觉得有负担...
好像是因为责任而和我做朋友...
好像是为了跟我做朋友而做的...
那真心在哪里?诚意在哪里?
如果不是真心诚意的,那还算是朋友吗?

我从来不肯把心情写在部落格上,因为我害怕他们看了会有负担...
可是,看来他们应该不会来这里看吧...
来我部落格的人应该没有一个了吧...
反正我每次都是那个被遗忘的...
没差拉...我也没在期望什么...
就只希望有一天我不会再自己一个人了...
一个人,真的好难过哦...

可是现在心情好差噢...
那两天的好...果然不属于我...
两天后,就像12点一到,魔法婆婆的魔法消失了一样...
灰姑娘的快乐时光也跟着消失了...
而我...我的快乐也瞬间没了...
因为那份快乐不属于我...
不属于我的东西,勉强得到也是得不到的吧...

不安全...我从来都没有真正的感觉到安全过...
每次都是这样...
就在我开始觉得跟疯婆们在一起很安全的时候,我们又到了人生的另一个阶段...
我们最终还是分开了...
虽然舍不得...但是也是没办法的事...
每个人都有自己该走的路...
每个人都在为自己的未来前进...
可是为什么就只有我还在原地踏步呢?
我也很想跟大家一起前进...
可是为什么我还是被那道墙挡着...
怎么也无法走到大家那边去呢?

为什么我终究是一个人?
没有人安慰...没有人鼓励...
没有人关心...没有人责骂...
一个人的就连自己的影子也不肯理我...

一个人哭泣...一个人伤心...
一个人又怎么能开心的起来呢?
虽然我每次都看起来很okay...
什么都不在乎...可是我在乎的东西比任何人都多...
我一点都不okay...
我爱胡思乱想...我什么都想...
该想的,不该想的...
能想的,我什么都想...
有时不是问题的东西都给我想成是问题了...
可能这就是因为我对事情都很不安心,觉得很不安全吧...

怎么办?我越来越不信任我身边的一切了...
一切都跟我想象的一样...
冷漠在两天后又回来了...
关心和关怀又没了...
期望的越多...失望的越大,不是吗?
那我每次为什么要期望那么多?
为什么每次让我觉得一切都不一样了之后,
又让我跌回谷底?让我如此失望...
安全感对我来说好陌生哦...

每次都在期望...
都期望那么多...
我是笨蛋还是白痴?
不属于我的东西,永远都得不到...
不是吗?

I'm just a burden to them... Isn't it?


11:27 PM


Friday, August 7, 2009

YAY!
DOUBLE!!
Got DOUBLE for my grading...
HEH.
Not bad JESSIE!
^^


8:38 PM


Saturday, August 1, 2009

i feel so sick now..
damn it..


9:04 AM