i woke up in cold sweat last night..
but i can't remember what i dreamt about.

♥ 1:27 AM

i can't say i know you well.. because i don't..
we may be very good friends, but i don't know you well..
i still need time to get to know you..

you apologised to me.. but for the wrong reason..
the reason you apologise don't bother me at all..
because i get my entertainment from there.. i get my fun..
so it should be me thanking you and not you apologising..

i know sometimes you are angry or frustrated..
but do remember.. i don't care.. i'm more concern about why you are frustrated..
i won't get angry if you are angry with me..
i just get frustrated because sometimes i don't know why..
you have to tell me.. tell me the reason why you are angry.. then we can actually work it out.

i'll apologise if it's my fault.. i'll talk to you if i think it's a misunderstanding..
so you HAVE to talk to me about it.
because what i am concern is you and not your problem..
i am upset because you won't discuss the matter with me..

really.. i don't need your apology..
i don't really cares about apologies..
i just want to have a solution..
a solution that will work out well..
if i want your apology.. i will ask for it straight..

so the best solution for now..
i think is that we can discuss about what's the problem and work it out..
i do cherish our friendship too..
so i really don't want to have any barriers in our friendship..

♥ 1:51 AM

i prefer not to see from far by standing far away.
i prefer to stand close and see close.
maybe one day one will realise it.
but i will need to have the patient to wait..
though at times.. waiting is very torturing..
but i can still do it.. (:

♥ 5:55 AM

one day it will reach the right person.

♥ 8:03 AM

i mustn't lose confidence..

♥ 7:40 AM

PLEASE SAY YES !

♥ 6:47 AM

went to watch "i give my first love to you" today..
a romance japanese movie adapted from the manga
"boku no hatsukoi wo kimi ni sasagu"..

it's a super sad movie.. i cried from the start all the way till the end.. ):
super sadded!
the storyline was good.. at least i like it myself alot..
but at the very end.. takuma still dies..
the time limit to their love is 20 years..
but it's not even 20 years when they ended..
it's sooo saddening that i still feels the pain in my heart now..
no regret watching this movie.. (:

Have to wake up super early tomorrow..
waking up at 6..
have to meet jac at 7 15 and reach ecp at 9..
omg.. i think i'll be super shag tomorrow and sunday...

♥ 10:15 AM

yep. the sun is out again today..
i'll get used to everything soon..
i'll adjust my emotions so i won't feel down again..
i'll be the super happy one because sadness only last for 3 minutes. (=

♥ 6:29 AM

3 minutes..
i'll only sulk for 3 minutes..
so please let me cover my face for 3 minutes..

♥ 8:43 AM

let the rain fall tonight.. and the sun will be out again tomorrow

♥ 7:00 AM

i thought that finally i am needed. i can be of some use..
but then i realised.. i am not. depending on others to depend on me..
but i'm not reliable enough for people to depend on.
maybe it was all my fault that no one is willing to depend on me.
because of my stupidness, silliness and childishness.
i am the cause of what i didn't want.

i tried to. but i really don't know how to approach and befriend.
i don't know how to react.. so in the end i chose to run away.
and at the very end.. i am the cause of everything that i didn't wanted.

i am not that brave.. not that strong..
i'm just a coward.. a person who depends alot on others..
i don't want that.. i don't want to depend that much on others..
in the end i will only suffer alone..

♥ 6:45 AM

then i realised i no longer belongs there. HAHAH
actually eversince year 2 i don't belongs to there anymore..
but still we are that much like a class..
but when a new sem starts..
the chances of us being together decreased.
physically i don't belongs to there..
and now.. mentally i more of aware that i no longer belongs to there anymore.
everything is no longer the same.
somehow it makes me so much sadded. )):

♥ 11:53 PM

OMG!!! I'M SO IN LOVE WITH HITMAN REBORN!!!
EPISODE 87!!!!

"ARASHI WA RED-TO"

FLAME OF ARASHI(STORM) IS RED!!!
RED! RED! RED!
ARASHI IS RED!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

♥ 12:15 PM

the things i want will never be mine..
the wishes i wish will never come true..
so what can i still wish for?
it will never be what i want..

the place that became what i hate..
is the place where i will be..
because my wish will never come true..
so what can i still yearn for?

**please don't be mistaken..
i'm not writing a poem..
it's just that i'm releasing my frustration.**

♥ 11:25 AM

it has been days since i last blogged..
well, it has been a really fun week!
go out everyday shopping, k-ing, movie-ing, shabu-ing, shopping..
WOOOHOOOOO
had soooo much fun!
but behind all the fun is always nagging..
well, practically everyday when i reach home,
my parents will be nagging and nagging and nagging! hahahah
but it's funny to hear what they say.. shhhhh

so today's plan is go malaysia..
BUT! dad say we might not be going..
PLEASEEEEE let me go! i've been sooo excited about it you know!
it like every alternate week i am going to malaysia!
i wanna go this week too!
PLEASE PLEASE LET ME GOOOOOO

*HAHAH it seems like i finally have a long blog post! so jac cannot say my blogg look like twitter again!

♥ 10:20 PM