because ever since young this is always how it was.
this is my fear, my trauma..
and this is how i feel now.
i become afraid of being alone again.
so fear that just one action would kill me straight.
just one action, i'll remember everything..
and then i become tramatized again..
not that i want.. but tears just can't stop flowing..
it's no one's fault but somehow i just can't stop my tears.
this is not how it should be.
this is not how i should be.
this is no me...
♥ 8:50 AM
so freaking stressed out even before school reopen! *sigh*
i lost all the mood to do anything.. feeling so tired now.
♥ 10:40 PM
I'm so in shopping mood now...
before i realised, i've been shopping for the past few days!
slightly more than a week!
nono.. not that i didn't realise.. i chose not to realise it!
or i will go crazy.. FOR SURE!!!
YAY! got my second pay! HAHAH
what does this mean?
SHOPPING TIME AGAIN!! *OH NO!*
anyway, i'm too lazy to talk about all the things that i bought..
so HAHA maybe next time..
still got resume to write.. sian..
♥ 8:20 AM
A happy happy birthday.
But a sad way to end it.
I don't blame anyone, but just thought..
Why on my birthday?
can't it be yesterday? or tomorrow?
why must it be on my birthday?
♥ 10:20 AM
what am i going to do in the future?
♥ 7:34 AM