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Tuesday, March 9, 2010

no one talks, only me.. talking so much so much..

yet the one talking is only me..

no one else.. not mum, not dad..

this house is falling apart..

none of them are happy..

everyone seems to be so unwilling to be at home..

everyone gave me the i don't want to be here face..

i tried to talk things out but..

everything is futile..

mum says that i'm always siding dad..

and never on her side..

but when i talk to dad,

dad will say that talking to me is useless, i'm just helping my mum to talk..

then what am i?

how can i talk to them as if the other party is wrong?

both are my parents.. what can i do?

who will be happy to see them in this state?

seeing and hearing them scolding bad about each other..

who on earth can bear this?

even if they caan, i can't!

i didn't want to stay in the living room anymore..

the aura there is death...

i can't stand the atmosphere..

then.. they scold me for staying in the room the whole day..

it's my fault...

we can be very good when we are at good terms..

but when things turn bad,

this house will seem like it's going to break down..

anytime...

when we are in good terms, everything seems so perfect..

everyone is happy.. everyone enjoying everyday together..

people says we have super good relationships..

but when things turn bad, all those things seems so fake..

everything seems as if it's an illusion..

so fake that i wish i didn't have such a good illusion...

so fake that i wish i wasn't someone who wants to stay at home..

staying at home thinking that i'll greet everyone who come home..

seeing them smiling when they saw me..

i was wrong.. this aren't happening...

waking up everyday hearing scoldings and shoutings..

going to sleep late at night because i didn't want to wake up early the next day..

hoping that i can go out almost everyday that's not like me...

seeing everyone coming home with a black face..

no one is smiling..

time after time...

i dare not go out to greet them..

i'm too afraid to see their faces..

i just hope that everything can be back to normal..

quarrelling over money issues is stupid..

quarrelling over super small matters is stupid...

quarrelling at home is stupid...

quarrelling with your loved ones is stupid...

quarrelling will only make ones sad...

not only no one will be happy..

everyone will be sad..

but none of them understand...

♥ 2:13 AM